Society is making me sleep through all this crazed out dreams.
I don’t even know what I’m saying.
How pointless this seems, if I don’t know what I’m saying, why do I keep writing?
I don’t know, I’ll know, you won’t, well, maybe you will, who knows?
(insert 10 mins pause looking at the ceiling while listening to music here)
First of all, I want to talk about anorexia. I know this is a really, really broad topic, but I really want to discuss it.
I guess most of you don’t know, but I’ve been volunteering for the past 5 years, it’s a lot of time and a long story to tell, so I’m just going to talk about a period of time I spent volunteering at one of the hospitals in my city.
4th Floor, I’ll never forget it, I remember myself going directly after my class at 7 30 and spending there a few hours talking to people, mostly kids and teenagers who were spending months or even years in the hospital.
The first time I went I went out crying, not the kind of crying you do when you see something that’s wrong or is extremely sad and you feel terribly bad about it, no, not that kind, the kind of cry that makes you feel as you were nothing and just keeps making you feel worse and worse each second, that kind. But I have to say that it was also the kind of cry that makes you feel strong afterwards and capable of everything. That was the awesome part about it. I kept coming back every week, even several times a week to talk to this kids and teenagers. Most of the fantastic teenagers I had the honor to meet were small women, all with anorexia nervosa.
This girls were strong, optimistic, funny, intelligent and amazing in every way they could be, but they committed a terrible mistake, well, actually, they didn’t, it was society the one who did it. I’m so tired of those magazines, the ones that claim that weighing more than 50 kg or 110 pounds is a crime, the ones who only show girls who are extremely skinny…. a lot of girls who read this magazines don’t know what they are being shown, which is a terrible and completely unrealistic image of the world’s reality. Let’s be clear. They are trying to sell an image of beauty which doesn’t match health standards in most cases, turning this girls into girls with anorexia or bulimia. Nowadays you can even find tips to be an girl with anorexia or bulimia, how crazy is that? am I the only one who sees it this way?
I really want to show you, if you hadn’t seen it. These are some ”thin commandments” I found on the internet…..
If you aren’t thin, you’re ugly.
Being thin is way more important than being healthy.
You must do anything to make yourself look thinner.
Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
Thou shall not eat fattening foods without punishing yourself accordingly.
Thou shall always count calories.
The scale is everything.
You must become thin.
Being thin and perfect are signs of true determination.
This isn’t something girls do to draw attention, this is a serious problem and society must realize that. We can’t keep on reading this like this on the internet followed by comments like ”Thanks for your help, I’ve lost 30 pounds or 10 kg so far!!!”
I think it’s really important to be healthy, but it’s not necessary to be extremely skinny for that.